Surviving Motherhood: to get through the morning.

Sigh. Morning.  

I have this dream where I get up at 6:30 a.m., drink my coffee and spend quiet time with the Lord, sometimes over his Word and sometimes over the kitchen sink, finishing up last night's dishes. A few moments alone with my thoughts, to plan the day, talk to God, to dream.  I swear every day that I'll go to bed early, that I'll wake up with the sun and my chickens.  

Our number two child is, let's say, passionate.  He has strong feelings about everything from ice in his water cup to his pop tart getting broken while it comes out of the package. Everything. He doesn't want nupping (nothing).  He doesn't yike (like) it. We are going along fine and then wham! Full on fit, throwing himself down, mouth open with the going to die noise coming out and he wants "nupping". Seriously. 

I always swore I would be the mom who would not put up with that. My kids would not get away with that kind of behavior. Golly Gee. Here I am blogging about it. I'm learning a lot about being quieter, taking my time, taking deep breathes, talking him down, things I didn't think I had time for before. "Can't that lady get her kid to mind?" "Why can't they get that kid to be quiet in church. Sheesh. If he were mine..." Yeah. I was that lady. Now, if I get a chance to go to church alone and some kid is making a heck of a lot of noise, I think: "It's not mine. I don't have to deal with it." and I go about my Mass. 

It doesn't mean that I've accepted that this is where we end up, that I just have to get used to it. It means that this is where we are at now and, if I work hard at it, pray a lot, love him daily, and keep on, that we will work on past this point.  

I also think that my hubby being more available (he works nights and doesn't sleep well) would help with the behavior issues but Daddy's not more available right now so I'll just have to keep on. 

I'll keep praying for a better tomorrow, praying that I can show love to all 4 of them, and direct them to Heaven. I keep praying that they will be holy people, serving Jesus in their daily life, leading others to Christ. I'll keep praying.